No no no no tooooo slow NO!

Shit am I just not good with stats and conceptual topics? Why am I so slow with math and reading? Stats AP-I was last one done and I needed more time. Stats college class- I ran out of time. When sharing and reading together, I'm always the last person to finish reading-and not even just by seconds!! It's by minutes! Or I skim and I don't know but I technically read it. Ugh why WHY! Why me?? Hate my brain. Hate my slowness and simple minded self. I can analyze sure just just averagely. I need to escape into my own little world or music tv stories and pictures. And throw some art and rafts in and I'm good to go. Shit, you know what this sounds like? A 10year old!! Ok maybe lets say I like sports and adventuring and stuff but I'm not athletic enough. I'm not exactly the one with the brightest ideas. I can't hear evrything everyone says something's, and so that hinders my social life too. I have no confidence in myself and what I do because rod the afore mentioned "disabilities." I'm not diagnosed and I don't think I should be since I'm functioning pretty normally. Just slow enough to be at the bottoms of the food chain, fast enough not to officially need help. WHY ME?!?!?