Hygiene

I bet if people answered honestly and without peer/social pressure, they'd say they only wash their hands after using a bathroom because people will judge you if you don't. But honestly, it's not neccessary. I barely wash my hands before meals, after bathroom business, and playing outside and all sorts of dirt and grim, Yet, I'm been sick less than a majority of people who are germaphobes and maintain super healthy lifestyles. Back in caveman times, did they wash their hands? Did they survive? Yes. They didn't live long because they didn't know diseases when they saw one and didn't know how to prevent it. Plus they had sporadic and unprotected sex. But they didn't have short lives due to not washing their hands. Same goes for showers. People shower daily, and some twice a day (morning and night), but is it neccessary? Showering is a must, don't get me wrong. However, it's not a top priority. If you feel clean, you are clean. That's been my motto for 100% of my 19 year old life. Shower only when you get physically dirty, you have icky stuff or your skin is sticky from dried sweat and grime. And of course if you have blood from wounds or other people's blood on you, yes, go shower and take care of all that. But there's absolutely no need for a daily shower. There's also no need for hand washing after bathrooming and before meals. This is just a little advice from someone who's lived her whole life not being able to smell, so I never knew when to shower and so I didn't shower and voila! I'm happy and healthy and never cared for hygiene. 

My heart flutters with his every word!

Hey so I'm back!! I hate myself for being like I am, but I'm becoming a total girl falling head over heels for a guy who I'm not even sure if he likes me. He's given me so signs you know, like complimenting my nails, and inviting me to tennis, starting facebook chats, being the one to find me on facebook, and also taking me to this place for dinner after our tennis game one night!! But the dinner thing could've been like, oh, we need food, and it's dinner time and we're both hungry, we should go. And the nails thing could be because I have weird nail art that's just not the norm. And then the facebook thing and chats could be because he's super social and so to him it's super normal to find everyone he can and chat whenever he has down time. And we studied together today but he seemed totally out of it and I have no idea. His eyes were bloodshot like he'd stayed up all night or was stressing out over orgo? Yea, he's really behind in orgo and he wanted me to help, but he didn't seem to be paying attention but I have no idea why. Then we went to lunch and it was just easy and fun and OMG!!!

He's cute, he goes to the gym, he plays soccer, tennis, and likes Harry potter (which I'm a huge fan of!) and he totally doesn't mind hanging out with me and telling me personal details!!! Ugh, why is he so perfect? I did only meet him for a week, and this is technically the 2nd time we hung out so maybe I should wait, but OMG!!!! I'm dying. I'm thinking about him, I get excited when I see he's online and ready to chat, I just feel stupid and silly about everything I do, and I get butterflies in my stomach over nothing, which is NOT normal for me. Wow, it's soooo cliche and I said I'd never do this -__-

I'd like every love song and rom-com put together and clashing in my life during a time when neither one of us has time to see each other. He's super behind in orgo, I'm super behind in life, but we both made time to talk and meet, but neither one of us wants to make the move, but then we've never really had the chance (yet!) so I have no idea. Is this a crush? Is this love?? This is the first guy who likes me who I also like, so I'm not sure what I'm feeling.

But I feel like the more he knows me the more he may not like me. I'm forgetful and stumble over words and I'm not religious and he is and I'm not athletic (though I want to be/try to) and he is and he's into anime and I'm not and I read and he doesn't and I HATE spicy food and he does and we have nothing in common aside from the fact that we both want to go into health professions. But then I feel like he feels like an underdog to me since he's kinda sheepish about asking me for help on stuff, but I'm glad to help him with school work but I don't want to be pushy. I've finished calc 2, taking physics 2, and orgo 2 and all my classes are like 1 step above his. Is that a thing? Do guys feel emasculated and weird about liking a girl who's taking higher classes and involved in more activities? I mentor kids, I hold officer positions in two clubs and I hope to pass my interview for a tour guide position. But so far, I... I don't know what activities he has. Oh, what if he doesn't have any and feels like I'm just bragging? ugh, I hate this - I HATE NOT KNOWING!!