Harry potter society pisses me off!

Why, in the Harry potter series, do people follow a bald short chubby noseless cancerous man lead them to war? Voldemort, if you've heard him in movies or read about him in the series, he has a raspy voice - a common symptom of smoking or other lung problem. Yes, I understand he's been through hell and back, literally, but he's so fragile! Just because he survived, doesn't mean he won't drop dead any second, or just die in his sleep. Actually, does he sleep?

Also, in the "muggle" world, even now, we would never EVERY let some ugly weird guy lead us to war. Yes, he's got character - bravery, brains, powers... amongst other things. But have you ever heard of a group of people following a leader just because of his character? Nope. Every leader we've seen - they looked decent - healthy. They weren't bald, they didn't have veins covering their heads, they didn't lose a body part, they didn't have evil red eyes (which the directors of Harry potter forgot to add by the way). Oh the countless things.

If I were a follower, I'd try and kill Voldemort and succeed him rather than proudly claim I will allow this evil conniving man whom no one can trust to order me around like a puppet because I believe he'll win.

Fuck, ain't nobody gonna win if they don't got mindless cowards supporting them!

Smells

as a foreigner to odors, scents, and any smells, It's been an investigation learning about odors.

1. New car smell? yes, it exists. Pleasant odor? Nope. been in at least 3 new cars, one of which I've been driving for a year. Just realized new car smell isn't good. New cars smell like carpets. Carpets.... i can only imagine it's bad from the sounds of it, and the only thing I can think of is a damp or wet carpet because it apparently soft linens smell good, meaning dry smells are good. So damp carpet... from what I gather with touch, it's.... i can only descibe as damp lingering.... I don't know.

scents are only nice for awhile because you grow accustomed and then temporarily immune to the smell, like sitting in a warm room and not realizing it's warm until you leave and come back.

Smells are weird.

Vinegar's the closest I've gotten, as far as smells go. It makes my sinuses tingly, which I assume is the sweet acid vapors drifting in my nose. Aside from that... nothing.

Dung? I'll say is acrid. how do I know? well, from cartoon it has sickly vapors hazardously rising up in predatorically slow motion. Dung is mushy and I'm taking an educated guess to say it's a base. I'm saying it's like the humid air - thick and sticks to you. it sits and sickly sweet. not sickly sweet like it's 100% sweet odors, and it's just overwhelming like when walking into a bath and body works. No I'm saying it's sickly sweet as in..... i don'y know. It's more sickly than it is sweet.

Sickly sweet, I can only image that's like a man made syrup that so thick with taste it's layer upon layer upon layer of sweet stuff and it's so thick that when you try to pour it it basically sits there. it's dark red, beautiful but horrid.

Most thing I just think of as bad or acrid or something will be in my mind, "musty." Where air just sits and it's not thick but it's enough to open your sinuses and sting a bit or.... more acid than vinegar... or just... i hate not knowing. I only know from information I gather from sight, touch, and taste.

AHHHH!!! Why the hell can't I smell? I want to smell all this!!! it's like eating 24/7 but with your nose and not your taste buds.

Sounds beautiful to be able to smell and now that I'm more aware of how many things emit odors, and how crazy attractive cologne is, I WANT TO SMELL EVERYTHING!!!

Literally, if I were to go up in heaven, I'd want a world of odors. Trees. Rain. Flowers. fresh air.

My 1st something

So I've already had a first guy to try and kiss me. But I didn't like him. I've had my first guy to publicly express his crush on me. He was annoying and couldn't take hints. Like Steve urkle. And I've had my first guy to touch me and hit on me not so subtly. That was just weird and creeped me out. Today? I had my first guy to ask for my number. Yea, it was exciting that he asked and all, but I didn't really think much of him. We had a group project. We talk in class. But I never thought of him as liking me, much less me liking him. In fact, I definitely remember I always tried to stay away from him because the first time we met as a group, he went out to smoke. Plus he's loud and not that handsome or cute and a Phil major who knows no science and he's a bit flabby. Trust me. He doesnt do cute little things, he doesn't seem charming and he doesn't woo. I need the woo. I yearn for the woo. So yea, every night I dream and wish and dream of a guy, any guy to hold me and cuddle and chat with and be with, but that doesn't mean I literally want just any guy. Ugh, all the wrong guys like me, and all the guys I like don't do anything to say they're interested. Why?? This guy is nice but I think it's just common place polite or friendly behaviour, not flirting behavior. He smokes and he's not all that interesting to talk to. How?? How do you tell these guys you don't like them? What more of a hint do they need? I think if I'm not making an effort to talk to you an in fact, I'm making an effort to stop talking to you or I look the other way or I just... Ugh!! Then yea, get the hint-- I'm not interested!!

On the other hand, I could be totally conceited and he just wants a friend, and he has no friends because his smoking drove them all away.

But then again, he asked for my number at the end of the semester!!! Right be fore summer break!!!!


Ugh. Just... Ugh. I'd rather go back to writing about murder dreams and horror/thriller dreams playing out in my head. Or ghost dreams of magic and mystery and enchanted lands and guys I like talking to me and hugging me or me having an actual social life outside of my, what, three friends?? Yea, maybe that's why all the guys I like don't like me. I try too hard.

Yay!!

Super elated today!! Got an email saying I got into the honor society, even if my GPA as of last semester was 3.292, and I got an interview to go mentor kids, yesterday a second guy noticed my zipper bracelet and we got to talk about it, I get to look pretty for three days in a row and it wasn't wasted on some dull nothing day, and I am still super excited about being picked for Red Cross treasurer and sign language club secretary, even if its because no one else would run for the positions... And I'm sooo on top of all my work!!! Well, that is until next week when I have to actually study and know material I haven't seen for weeks. Sigh... Maybe I'm not that ontop of everything and I should stress, but its so nice out, and I'm lookin cute, and I just feel... Great!! I need to get vitamins from the store to fill up on iron, since apparently my iron is allllllllways too low.

Anyways, just wanna say, I'm totally in love with formal dresses now and can't wait til my wedding when I get to design and plan my own wedding!!! And pick dresses for friends' weddings!!!! Say yes to the dress is too addicting, I need to get a life. Ok, see ya!!