So yesterday was fun. No. Not fun. AMAZING!!!!! Ha ha I got to talk with this cute guy in our group, he's got my number as of Wednesday but yea, we're still just casual friends. Like not even "oh let's hang out whenever!" kind of friends but just "cool, we'll see each other in club next week. Or next. Or the next week." Grr. But yea, we chatted and YAY YAY YAY!! Plus I parked my bike out in the tornado. tied my helmet to it too. And I totally had time to move it because other people were late and I ended up waiting!!! Grrrrr. But anyway. I'm starting to see a pattern in guys I like, guys who like me, and - Oh. MY. GOSH! Have I got a story about guys liking me....
Just realized this, btw, after meeting this creeeepy guy yesterday!
Ok, well, not creepy, just weird. So here's a re-cap:
We were on a trip the 12 of us to a show in DC. We took a metro from school to get there, and we find a guy headed in our direction, though a little further. But the half of our group who found him were welcoming and was like "ok, sure hang with us, whatever." Yea, then he just hung with me. I did know him. I didn't want to talk to him. I wanted to be with my friends. But that didn't happen. Then I notice his hand on my knee when I was talking to my friend behind me.
Whoa. Whoa. Whoa.
Hold up.
We met him for 5 minutes, and he's already movin' in? Uh uh. I was just like "Fuckkkkk why me? Kid, I ain't know you like that. What is all this business " Actually, I thought of saying that, but in reality, I just shrugged off his arm and crossed my leg away from him. I immediately started staring out the window and replied with short answers. He still didn't get the hint. That idiot. Thank god I was saved by the bus. We were moving out and soo glad he was not coming. Yea, he was nice, but just, you know, you don't hit on someone you meet on the metro within the first 10 minutes. You just don't. Ugh, Plus it's so awkward trying to hint to a nice guy that you're seriously on different pages. Like I'm on page one of the first harry potter book and you're on page 395 in the 6th book.
This was n't so much creepy as it was awkward and just weird.
Shit, he goes to my school. Guess I'll look the other way if I see him. Teehee. Though we all know I'm too nice for that. I'll probably chat and rush off to the library or fake like I've got a class.
So this is the second guy who I felt absolutely NO attraction to and did not even THINK about us being together. Another guy, from last year, did the same thing!! the two of us also friendly chatted away our time and I was just thinking "Yay! I can be social!!" while the guy's probably like "Oh, cute girl. Maybe we can be together!"
No. NOT why I started talking to you. If I liked you, I'd be totally embarrassing and awkward and NOT as comfortable as I am right now. If I liked a guy, I'd laugh a little too hard, have trouble not smiling when I talk to you, and just... ugh. I don't even want to think about how I act around guys I like. They'd be totally chill and AMAZING and I'd be wigging out in my corner due to the fact we're still talking. Well, the first thing is, the guys I didn't like who liked me, they started to make their move WAYYY too soon. Like the first time I hung out with either of them, they started to get close. Guys I like? Yea, I WISHED (with alllllll my heart!) that they'd get a hint and make a move. Freakin' me, I would never DARE make a move first. Of all the embarrassment I'd put myself through? Then you expect me to make the fist move? And hope for the best? Yea. That's gonna happen.
So tell me, like please tell me. Why? Why does this happen? I need friends who'll give these guys a hint for me. But Yep, I've seen the movies - wherre the wing man (or wing girl in this case) turns out to be the one the guy likes and fall for. Luckily that's never happened and I can't imagine what I'd do if that did happen. I'd be all over the place wacky and weird and even more embarrassing. No matter what I tell myself now, I KNOW I won't follow my own instructions later. Yep, so much for that!
Anyway, I need to sleep. I think I need to get up early tomorrow, so NIGHT!
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