People of this world...

“true to your heart” and it’ll always tell you the truth? HA! What if you can’t trust yourself? When you know you’re delusional and can’t trust yourself, what then? You gonna go out and tell someone “rationalize the world for me, pleasee!!!” Well, tell me when you find that person because no one will do that but a mental hospital. Or just suicide. Yea, THIS is why suicide should be legal.

Well, all I’m saying is that there are lots of “what ifs”in the world. People can suggest you make a smart decision, and you can follow. Or, you can be persistent and follow your heart. Either way, it’s your choice. You’re not wrong for thinking others are wrong in telling you “your place” but they aren’t wrong in suggesting you settle with something stable and easy to work with to support yourself.

 

 We’re all raised to think we can do anything we want and that we’re unique and special, but what if it’s all a lie? What if we are just average people who need to get their shit together and get a real job instead of chasing wild fantasies of becoming a world renown reporter or artist or celebrity or author or lawyer or philosopher such as MLK or Socrates. Or what if we all have a place to be, whether we like it or not? Like in Mulan where men are to do things out of honor and women need to do things to support them.

This also enrages me. Why do things out of honor? You hurt yourself or others just for a title? Eventually, more than halve the people you end up hurting won't even deserve it. Like war…. “I’ll fight for my country! I don’t believe in war, but it’s honorable and gives me pride” or some mafia "I must kill this kid because it keeps up my reputation!" is NOT a good reason. You need to believe in what you’re doing. Otherwise, if everyone thought like that, it’d be VERY Easy for someone to control us. For example, someone says “you should kill him because it’s honorable” or “Go be a house wife because it’s honorable to you man…” NO! Oh my, people these days….we have too much pride and honor and bullshit. Forget it. I give up on people. (just kidding tho!)


Speaking of ignorant people, a Christian group recruiter or someone like that came up to me and started talking about "I believe everyone's a sinner and everyone sucks and doesn't deserve heaven. “I don't mind that she loves her god so much, but now that she's interrupted my reading time and started talking about all this religion when I've decidedly cut religion out of my life, it makes her sound desperate. It's like she's saying, "we have 2,000,000 Christians and it's the most followed religion, but we still want more people and we're not forcing religion on you yet we're asking you to join...again and again and again until you join just to get us off your backs but once you join you have to do all this and hold a reputation that shows you're good and forgivable and......." Plus she started with "Do you think about death? Then went to what happens after life. I guess that's a good intro, but it doesn't hook me in if you're talking about religion. If you're talking about the supernatural and ghosts and stuff, sure, I’ll talk with you. (hahah yea, I just said "uh huh...yep..ok... while she rambled on about something I KNOW I don't believe in. "god" hasn't shown me he's a higher power than me by earning his position, so he's still below me in my mind.) But it's after death so I'll live my life, then worry about what to do after my life if I need to. I'm not wasting my life pleasing a god that may or may not exist. And how do we have "spirits?" We're born of chemistry and electrons bonding and like a battery, we just "turn on" without reason. The battery doesn't do anything until you connect it with a tool that can wire its power to use, and babies don't come to life until that one bond connects us all and we're "Alive."

Moving on from religion since it's so touchy for some people, I'll wrap it up here. Enjoy you day!